Posted August 14, 2008on:
Nobody knew how Sahil felt or thought. He kept to himself. Kavita was exactly opposite to him. She was chirpy, bubbly and very talkative! If she was like waves of the ocean he was like an anchor, firmly rooted to the ocean-bed. Though Kavita had accepted him she missed sharing his thoughts. But whenever she had these kinds of thoughts, Sahil would do something very sweet and all her anger and disappointment will evaporate.
But these days Sahil was very happy and for a change, it showed in his behaviour too. In their marriage of two years, this was the first time Kavita heard him whistle! Well, she was happy too!
She was pregnant!
Kavita was pampered silly in those nine months. Sahil would drop her to her office and was always there to pick her up, he would see to it that kavita got the best of everything! This was to say the least…
Today was the D-day and Kavita was very scared. Her labour was induced in the morning at 7 but somehow the drugs were taking all the time in the world to act. Sahil was there besides her like a rock. She was writhing in pain and was totally exhausted. After a very difficult labour she delivered her child at 5 in the evening.
She looked at Sahil for the sign of happiness or any sign, for that matter! But she was not prepared for what she saw! She saw the veil coming down on his face, he grew completely rigid and then she lost him! He left the room without a second glance.
Kavita got scared. She didn’t understand what happened! She looked at her mother and saw tears streaming down her face.
She wanted to scream….
“Can somebody tell me, what’s going on here? Where is my baby?”
Nobody said anything. She was cleaned and taken to the recovery room. Her mind was about to explode.
Then the nurse entered with a little bundle in white. She could see the baby’s face. The baby looked absolutely cute and adorable. But as the nurse placed the baby in her arms she knew that something was wrong.
Not something, everything was wrong!
Her son was a stillborn!
She just looked at her son, kissed his forehead and caressed him lovingly. She asked for forgiveness for letting him down and not been able to take care of him. She just stared at him.
When the nurse came again to pick him up, she didn’t even protest!
But then all hell broke loose and tears would not stop.
She longed to be held by Sahil.
He was nowhere in sight.
“He had completed the formality and went straight home. To prepare for her arrival!” her mother told.
Kavita was discharged within two days and these two days were the toughest of her life.
She saw Sahil after two days when he came to pick her up.
When she entered her home she was in for a second shock. Her home, no now it can’t be called a home, the house was stripped off everything that bore any sign of their child’s arrival.
She saw Sahil drift from her and everything else, day after day. He had retreated in a cocoon.
They no longer communicated, in any sense!
She tried her level best but couldn’t cross the invisible wall that Sahil had erected around his heart. Now, it was getting difficult to bear the silence. She felt as if it was her fault that their son had not survived.
Last year on this date Sahil had lost his son.
Today he is going to lose his wife. For good!